I stopped taking my sleeping tablets a few days ago, as they seemed to be draining me of energy which is a strange outcome – when they are meant to knock you out so you can rest!. Although they did indeed knock me out at night, the dosage I was on seemed to be too strong. But when the dosage was lowered it seemed to have the same affect for different reasons.
High dosage: Knocked me out for around 7 to 8 hours.
Lower dosage: Knocked me out for around 3 to 4 hours.
The lower dosage knocked me out but for not as long and consequently woke up in the middle of the night unable to sleep again. Thus making me tired during the day.
So I decided to knock the sleeping tablets on the head and try to sleep without them.
It worked! But with very weird results. I started dreaming which hasn’t happened in a long time. The dreams were of my daughter. At first I was just seeing her from a distance, but then when I started to interact with her… That’s when it got weird. She started talking to me. I don’t remember the words she was saying to me but I know they were very intellectual and we were having a grown up conversation. Then every time I told her I loved her, her smile was glowing.
Another dream involved me picking her up. Each time that happened she would start laughing and I could see she was very happy. Yet when I put her down her expression would change and become sad.
Not sure if this is just my mind messing around or if something from a divine nature. All I know is I feel a lot better now that my drug intake has halved.