Solitude is horrible

The old saying goes ‘Silence is golden’ but for me its far from it.

Before all of this agro started my life was full of sound. I would come home from work with the tv on, radio playing in the kitchen and my children playing happily with each other.

My motto for life was simple: Life is wonderful.

However, my life was wonderful, I had everything I ever wanted. A beautiful wife and two gorgeous children. But that has all but vanished. I see my son 4 days a week which is great, we have so much fun together. Yet I dread the time that his mother picks him up. As after he has gone the silence kicks in.

How can silence haunt you so much? Every day I pray for noise, my children to be playing together, my wife back or just someone to visit.

Solitude is horrible, prisoners are put in solitary confinement as punishment. This works because people need people. Yet here I am – in my own prison, my own solitary confinement.

And I hate it.