My daughter was full of life, full of energy, and never quiet
Well here we are again. We were back in family court again today and this whole process is just bewildering to me. How people I don’t even know can dictate how my life is going to play out; and for the privilege of it, I get the honour of paying them for it.
Turns out that my previous non-molestation order was just an interim one, so we were able to change it. However my wife didn’t want to, she would not accept any changes being made. I am not sure if this upset the judge or not, but he made my wife’s solicitor go back to her and try to get her to change her mind. Which in the end, she did.
Yet I am still not sure what difference this has made. I am still not allowed to do any of the things listed in the first order, the only difference I can see, is that I denied all the allegations. Whilst there, I knew that my daughter was in the building, so requested that I be allowed to see her. Against my wife’s wishes, It was agreed by both solicitors I was allowed to see Emma all for the space of 10 minutes in a small room, with both solicitors present – I guess this is better than nothing right?
Now I have to be quite honest here, it was quite heart breaking; as my daughter didn’t seem to recognise me any more. Although she did not run away or cry, she just stood there looking at me. This was not at all like the daughter I knew. My daughter was full of life, full of energy, and never quiet. What has my wife done to you Emma?
Part of me wished I had not seen her today – then I would not have these worries. But obviously the greater part in me was happy to see my daughter again.
When the time was up, I was not allowed to leave the room until my wife had disappeared. So standing at the window in the door, I kept waving to Emma, who even whilst my wife was trying to put her in the pram, kept looking back at me. Obviously wondering what was going on, but I could see in her eyes, she somehow recognised me.
I miss you Emma, I really miss you.